Hey!
First off im jealous of the Fiesta Bowl.
This
week was a week for me. but not because of the visible success we had
this week, actually there wasn't a huge amount of that. We met with our
investigator who is the walking hospital. He is having some struggles
with life even more lately. When we met him this week he told us
multiple times how he has had thoughts of suicide this week. We talked
to him a little bit about that and then Elder Bodan and I decided to
share the He is the gift video. He really liked that and it really set
the tone for the rest of the lesson. It set the tone so much that we
gave him a baptismal date and he accepted the day. The only problem with
that is because he is really sick, he cannot come to church easily and
to null the pain he turns to smoking and drinking. We will be continuing
to try and prepare him for baptism over the next coming week so he can
get baptized in January.
We have another
college student who we met with, but he was just really sad that his dog
was in the hospital so he didnt listen to us much.He was just really
sad. Finally we also picked up a new investigator who, as Elder Bodan
tells me is golden. I have not met him before because I was on exchanges
when we had an appointment with him.
So this
week was a good study/pondering week for me and i have a couple
questions for you. I am reading in the Book of Mormon in 2 Nephi and I
have noticed that one of the patterns in the Isaiah chapter is
Repentance. I really felt this week that I need to understand the role
of repentance and how we use it better. not because I have some huge sin
in my life, but i feel like I will have to explain it and use it
better. Maybe I will just have to talk to you in person to make more
sense, but I will say it briefly. So.. we all repent and have to keep
repenting because we are human and make the same mistakes over and over
again. One part of repentance is feeling Godly sorrow,forsaking the sin
and asking for forgiveness through Prayer and maybe talking to your
bishop. so my first question would be when does the sin become something
you have to confess? I know you confess the big sins, but If i feel
Godly sorrow for commiting the sin and ask for forgiveness is that full
repentence or must there be more? Also because we are human we will
almost always make the same mistakes, therefore commiting the same sin
we just felt sorry for and promised not to do anymore. That is where the
infinite atonement comes in, because He suffered we get unlimited
second chance. We just have to STRIVE to be perfect. Because we always
are making the mistake over and over, we are never really forsaking the
sin. Sometimes after I make the same mistake again i get frustrated
because I question if I truly repented in the first place. so How do we
truly hate the sin and leave it behind us? As you can tell I had alot to
think about this week.
So the reason I will
remember this week is because it was a great time to embrace the Spirit
of Christ, not Christmas. I dont know if I will ever have a really good
chance to do that again but I want to make it a part of my Christmas
every year and life every day. I Love this Gospel so much! It makes me
be a better person, man, missionary and future husband and father every
day! Transfer Calls is this week so we will see what happens. im pretty
sure im staying with Elder Bodan!
Love ya Lots!!
Miles
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